“For the past 26 years I’ve thought of heroin every day…”But never thought of using it. It never made anything better, just worse. Look, every junky is always “considering” getting clean. Every junky wants to be clean. Every using junky also wants more heroin. Call it a contradiction call it what you want. But no junky wants the life they have.James: 26 years clean, Sydney, Australia
Source: I have not felt like using for years but that is not everyone’s experience. Recovery doesn’t make you immune from life. After nine years clean I held my dead son in my arms. For the life of me I could not figure out how shooting heroin would bring him back. That wasn’t ok but I am ok. Using doesn’t fix anything.” Damien: 13 years clean, Sydney, Australia | THE OLD PROVERBIAL RECOVERY
Inside, an emotional father celebrated the life of his oldest boy, once an honor student on full academic scholarship. With painful honesty, he told the world that heroin made it all go wrong.”Our honesty and openness in his obituary was so that other parents can follow suit without shame or embarrassment,” his father said at the funeral.Bill Scannell and Emmett’s mom, Aimee, decided to be open about the cause of their son’s death. They posted a Facebook message with their son’s obituary, and Emmett’s dad read it before all at the funeral.
Source: Parents refuse to bury truth about son’s heroin overdose death – CBS News
Do you know what it feels like to kick heroin? Let me explain for those of you who have never experienced this disgusting illness. When heroin withdrawal sets in it starts off with a few sneezes, a few yawns, some cold sweats and chills over your entire body. Not so bad yet, right? Insomnia sets in, you could literally rip your skin off your body cause it so fucking uncomfortable to sit within your own skin that you start to punch your own legs. Oh yea, your legs start to hurt so bad that you ponder if you really need them to live the rest of your life anyways.
Source: Heroin withdrawals | Recovery From Opiates | Addiction Unscripted
(CNN)There is a scene in the documentary “Black Tar Heroin: The Dark End of the Street” that continues to resonate with me, despite the 18 years that have passed since 25-year-old me was featured in the film. I was asking the camera, if I wasn’t using drugs, “what would I do with my life?” I was pointing to the camera, showing the soft tissue infections on my skin. I was skeletal, living in a filthy hotel room with my boyfriend. I had left my apartment a few years earlier for a spring break trip to San Francisco and had never returned home.”What would I do with my life?” This continues to be a question. There are two parts to recovery: There is the ceasing of the use and abuse of chemicals. Then, the more difficult process for a person like myself: creating a whole new life. I had fallen so far to the bottom, where would I start? After spending eight years of my life on heroin, what are the steps I need to take to rebuild my life and my sanity?
Source: Beating heroin is more than 12 steps; it’s 18 years and going – CNN.com