So I called in the doctor and tried to tell him, as best I could, what had happened. And he said, “Yes, I have read of such experiences but I have never seen one.” I said, “Well doctor, examine me, have I gone crazy?” And he did examine me and said, “No boy, you’re not crazy. Whatever it is, you’d better hold onto it. It’s so much better than what had you just a few hours ago.” Well, along with thousands of other alcoholics, I have been holding on to it ever since.

      But that was only the beginning. And at the time, I actually thought that it was the end, you might say, of all my troubles. I began there, out of this sudden illumination, not only to get benefits, but to draw some serious liabilities. One of those that came immediately was one that you might call Divine Appointment. I actually thought, I had the conceit really to believe, that God had selected me, by this sudden flash of Presence, to dry up all the drunks in the world. I really believed it. I also got another liability out of the experience, and that was that it had to happen in some particular way just like mine or else it would be of no use. In other words, I conceived myself as going out, getting hold of these drunks, and producing in them just the same kind of experience that I had had. Down in New York, where they knew me pretty well in the A.A., they facetiously call these sudden experiences that we sometimes have a “W.W. hot flash.” I really thought that I had been endowed with the power to go out and produce a “hot flash” just like mine in every drunk.

      Well, I started off; I was inspired; I knew just how to do it, as I thought then. Well, I worked like thunder for 6 months and not one alcoholic got dried up. What were the natural reactions then? I suppose some of you here, who have worked with alcoholics, have a pretty good idea. The first reaction was one of great self-pity; the other was a kind of martyrdom. I began to say, “Well, I suppose that this is the kind of stuff that martyrs are made of but I will keep on at all costs.” I kept on, and I kept on, until I finally got so full of self-pity and intolerance (our two greatest enemies in the A.A.) that I nearly got drunk myself. So I began to reconsider. I began to say, “Yes, I found my relief in this particular way, and glorious it was and is, for it is still the central experience of my whole life. But who am I to suppose that every other human being ought to think, act and react just as I do? Maybe were all very much alike in a great many respects but, as individuals, we’re different too.” ~ Bill W. (June 1945)


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Can we talk about alcoholism and Anthony Bourdain? | Miami Herald

June 22, 2018 08:04 PM

I didn’t know Anthony Bourdain, but felt like I did in one small important way.In him, I saw a drinking alcoholic with a front-stage vigorous attempt to do it successfully. His was a fantastic life-embracing show, with drinking taking a prominent role in the joie de vivre, and sometimes that made it hard for me to watch.When he threw back shots, indeed got wasted, I saw a fellow alcoholic living dangerously whereas most viewers I imagine saw “a man who knew how to drink, knew how to live.” His state of mind will be called depression, and who can argue that in the face of suicide. But can we please, people, start connecting the dots to alcoholism (also a disease of the mind), at least when it is screamingly evident?Perhaps I should not presume to think I know, but I can at least invite the conversation where it is uncomfortably and amazingly absent. Did alcoholism (which brings depression or ineffectively “treats” depression), ultimately take down Bourdain?

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Here is what Jimmy K. said about our Traditions:
Jimmy K’s 20th Anniversary Talk (excerpted) LOS ANGELES AUGUST 18, 1973
“we’re funny people, the more we try to do things together, the more we fight each other and the more we tear each other apart, tear down the very thing we try to build. And that’s been the history, up until a few short years ago, of Narcotics Anonymous. We tore down as fast as we built. That’s the kind of people we are and we must recognize that to recover. All of us must know the nature of the illness, the nature of the illness, the nature of the addict, and the nature of recovery.”
1. “Before NA there was HFD, Habit Forming Drug Groups [who] demanded certain things, and were dominated by one or two persons. You know, you and I don’t go for authority, we don’t like authority. “
2. Some people “from East LA formed another group known as Addicts Anonymous… they died very quickly because they too were dominated by one man.
3. “So, we found out very early, and our experience has taught us that we can have no bosses, no big shots in Narcotics Anonymous.”
4. “Due to some things that happened and due to the nature of the addict, the nature of our illness, some people were put in a position where they became the leaders again, the Great White Father. You know, we can’t have a Great White Father or a Big Momma, you know, it doesn’t work in this organization. And NA died once more.”
5. ‘But again and again this happened in this organization. One person would try to dominate the whole movement. And every time it happened we began to die. Because the Traditions go down the drain when we try this.”
“the Traditions must be followed if we were to grow…We could take our own place as a fellowship, and not be dominated by or affiliated with anything or anybody else.”
“Because the policies of the Traditions are enough to guide us in what we have to do. The Traditions will save us from ourselves. And this is what is so necessary for a fellowship like ours.

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